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6/19/06 12:36 pm - Impossible Battle

Kaede(10:41:24 AM): *evil grin*
Alex(10:41:30 AM): o.o
Alex(10:41:40 AM): what's with the evil grin?>.>
Kaede (10:41:44 AM): XD
Kaede (10:41:53 AM): Make you nervous?
Alex(10:41:58 AM): ...>.>
Alex(10:42:11 AM): What's with the grin?>.>
Kaede (10:42:17 AM): Nothin
Alex(10:42:30 AM): Kaede..stop..what's with the grin.>.>
Alex(10:43:52 AM): What is with the grin?-_-
Kaede (10:44:34 AM): Nothing jesus
Alex10:44:50 AM): People just don't do that...
Alex(10:45:15 AM): I swear if anything bad happens..-_-
Kaede (10:46:27 AM): Don't like not being in control don't you?
Alex(10:46:44 AM): Might as well tell me.
Kaede(10:46:52 AM): Tell you what?
Alex(10:47:05 AM): Why your grinning.-_-
Kaede (10:47:10 AM): Nope./
Alex(10:47:22 AM): Why?
Alex(10:47:36 AM): So what did you do huh?
Alex(10:47:45 AM): Might as well just tell me..i'm hurting enough as it is.
Kaede (10:48:08 AM): *pets hair*
Kaede (10:48:13 AM): So.. want to talk about something?
Alex(10:48:21 AM): What did you do Kaede..
Kaede(10:48:33 AM): Guess not. *draws*
Alex(10:49:09 AM): You didn't justget your hair done and crap did you..-_-
Alex(10:49:40 AM): Might as well tell me.
Alex(10:49:46 AM): Everything is going down hill as it is.
Kaede(10:49:49 AM): So what did I do?
Alex(10:49:59 AM): I don't know..you tell me.
Kaede (10:50:15 AM): I'm not telling you anything.
Alex(10:50:25 AM): So now we are hiding things?
Alex(10:50:36 AM): And you think this is making things better eh?
Alex(10:51:05 AM): Go on..just tell me.
Alex(10:51:15 AM): Or are you scared too?
Kaede (10:51:56 AM): I'm not scared to tell you anything. ^_^
Alex(10:52:00 AM): Then tell me
Alex(10:52:20 AM): Obviously you are if your not telling me what your hiding
Kaede (10:54:10 AM): You don't know if I am or not.
Kaede (10:54:16 AM): So.. ^_^
Alex(10:54:31 AM): The way your acting..
Alex(10:54:35 AM): I have a feeling you are.
Alex(10:54:44 AM): So you might as well come out with it.
Kaede (10:55:39 AM): I'm just making you look like a jackass, because I'm not hiding anything. ^_^
Alex(10:55:54 AM): I fope not.
Alex(10:55:56 AM): *hope
Kaede (10:55:58 AM): Or?
Alex(10:56:06 AM): Do I really need to answer that?
Kaede (10:56:14 AM): >_>
Kaede (10:56:22 AM): This is beyond fucked up -_-
Alex(10:56:31 AM): Why is it?
Alex(10:57:03 AM): Someone who cheats on me(not saying you did) will see what the pain is that I am feeling because of it, aka the pain of knowing what they did.
Alex(10:57:27 AM): Again, not at all saying you did.
Alex(10:58:15 AM): But, what is the best way to make someone feel the pain they give when they cheat on someone?
Alex10:58:37 AM): It's hard for some people to re-group after someone has cheated on them.
Alex(10:59:39 AM): Doing that shows you care nothing for that person, and then the person cheated on feels useless..pathetic..and have no self confidence anymore.
Kaede (10:59:55 AM): What would you know about showing someone you care for them?
Alex(11:00:26 AM): You think cheating on them shows they care?
Kaede (11:00:41 AM): You think what you do to me shows me you care about me?
Alex(11:00:41 AM): Any ding-dong knows that when someone cheats on someone they care only for themself.
Alex(11:01:28 AM): You know I care for you..if I didn't i'd fuck around behind your back..never bother with you..never try to calm you down when you have your 'attacks'.
Kaede(11:01:41 AM): I'd rather you do that then what I'm getting now.
Alex11:01:59 AM): You hate me that much?
Alex(11:02:24 AM): Go ahead and say it.
Alex11:02:30 AM): I'll go away then.^^
Alex(11:03:23 AM): All you have to do is give me the word, Kaede.
Alex(11:03:28 AM): And i'll simply..go away.^^


6/19/06 03:53 am - Coma of Pain

Laying on a cold hard floor.. asleep.
Her blood runs from underneath her..
The blood reaches her masters feet and he laughs.

Kicks her in the face to wake her up..
More blood greets him.

"Oh it's okay I love you.."
she smiled smearing the blood away from her lips..
"I love you too..."

He holds her tightly and makes her feel better.

Days go by and she heals..
Walking to the window she see's a bird..
So beautiful.

She reaches through the small grate to touch it..
A familiar scent is behind her and she feels it.
Impacted by his love.
She falls once more.

Her blood runs free for her lover.
Does she kiss him or run away..

"If you ever leave this place, you will suffer forever.."
So she didn't want to suffer..
but she suffered anyway.

She cried when he was away..
Cried oceans of tears.
They stung her wounds which made her cry more..

"Why can't I be free like that bird?" she thought.
"So colorful, so free. She could go anywhere she wanted to, fly far away. I wish I had wings.. then I too could fly away. But guilt would hold my wings down wouldn't it? I've never been free and either him or guilt will keep me prisoner."

She took a shard of glass to her own wrist and applied pressure..
He found her broken into a million pieces.
"What are you doing!? You don't love me if your going to do that!" he yelled at her angry.
"Flying like a bird.. to be free" she said in her heaviest tears.

He took the shard of glass from her and stabbed his own heart.
"You killed me, now live with the pain!" he said before he died.

Her eyes moist with tears began to dry..
She fell to the floor and didn't blink ever again.
She fell into a coma of pain..
and there she remains forever.

Alone.. in her dark room.. with the corpse of her lover.

6/11/06 02:54 am

To those of us who've never tried
To find a face behind our lipstick smiles
And as our pretty faces die
Our broken hearts still wonder why
The make-up just wont hide the scars of time.

Trouble in paradise, me and the guy is seperated.
(I'M NOT SUPPOSE TO TELL IN FEAR THAT PEOPLE WILL HIT ON ME)
So you didn't read that. XD

Anyway, my week has been shit. I'm tired all the time, and I have to work today.
Bum bum bummer.

Bai bai 4 now.

5/30/06 08:28 pm - Sweet little words..

Keep holding on
When my brain's tickin' like a bomb
Guess the black thoughts have come Again to get me
Sweet bitter words
Unlike nothing I have heard
Sing along mocking bird
You don't affect me

That's right
Deliverance of my heart
Be straight
Be deliberate

[Chorus]
Wait
I'm coming undone
Unlaced
I'm coming undone
Too late
I'm coming undone
What looks so strong
So delicate
Wait
I'm starting to suffocate
And soon I anticipate
I'm coming undone
What looks so strong
So delicate

Choke choke again
I thought my demons were my friends
Getting me in the end
They're out to get me
Since I was young
I've tasted sorrow on my tongue
And this sweet chugga gun
Does not protect me

That's right
Trigger between my eyes
Please strike
Make it quick now

[Chorus]

I'm trying to hold it together
Head is lighter than a feather
Looks like i'm not getting better
Not getting better

[Chorus]

New layout.. it owns all. Vast in its glory.

5/25/06 09:04 am - Freedom frys

Anyone in America.. do you remember those?

5/20/06 05:11 am - アップルパイ

ちょー、久しぶりの更新です
昨日、久しぶりにアップルパイを焼きました。
パイ生地にクリームチーズとくたくたに砂糖とバターで煮たりんごちゃんをのっけて
オーブンで30分。










仕上げに、シナモンシュガーをかけると最高です。
写真がないのは、もう食べちゃったから
なんでも焼きたて、作りたてが一番です。
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